March 10, 2024

*reunited


We found the last deer yesterday in the early morning hours dead in our garden. At least it is reunited with the others again. I'm running out of tears lately. Storms Night and Day, reflecting the turmoil inside of me. The bad news are not breaking off and I long for a pause to be able to process all that has happened this year already. 

March 08, 2024

*Returning to the comfort of words


Two days ago we celebrated my Birthday with a walk at the river where billions of snowdrops are covering the ground right now, the weather was quite grey again and windy. We met a men who was working with a logging horse in the forest. He told us that wood work with horses is not as seldom as we often assume. Nowadays a lot of wood work is done with huge harvesters and they destroy so much in the forests, the work with a logging horse is a lot less invasive.

Unfortunately only one deer remained of the flock that lived in the area around our house. It is a little one, that has found refuge in our garden recently. First it only came from time to time to graze, but since several days it also sleeps there and does not even flee when we are near. Don't know how to lead it to a safer area. It always goes back to the place where it has lost the others. The street is so near, it's really a dilemma.

March 05, 2024

*spring dreams



Welcome to March!
I don't know where to start, it feels already so long ago, since I last sat down to write here, the last month has been so emotional exhausting and full of worries, that I was not able to take up my brushes to paint at all (those "spring dream" paintings are from January), but also unexpected nice things happened. First signs of spring have shown up so early! I found first snowdrops and the apricot trees are starting to bloom already! Now only the sun has to follow – we had mostly gloomy days throughout February. No snow at all, but I don't know if I can trust the weather enough to start preparing for the new garden season, let's see...
In any case I hope you had a good start into March and that it will bring you lots of spring flowers and good feelings! Until soon!

February 25, 2024

*Slowly welcoming the new year & floating through winter

{Music: With You – Matteo  De Grandis}

I forgot to post my latest youtube video here as well, it's from end of January/start of February:
A little later than usual I started to welcome the new year and film a little every now and then. Even though I am longing for spring earlier than ever, I still enjoy to float through those distinct winter days. We had mistiness like in autumn and some frost every now and then but also some sunshine for the soul, I had my first spring flowers on the windowsill and enjoyed the calmness of the mornings.

February 19, 2024

*Iceheart


The beauty of ice.

February 17, 2024

*holding the pieces together


A lot of burdening things are happening lately. It's an emotional very demanding time.
It decreases my joy to blog, because it feels senseless somehow. To distract my mind a bit I started to do jigsaw puzzles again. I loved to do them as a child with my family and also alone.
I just came back from a nature walk, we did not have any snow in February and I also don't think that we will get any this month still. But we had a little frost every now and then and misty days like in autumn, but today the sun was out for a moment and the mood of the clouds was stunning. It really felt like walking in a painting of the great masters of art.

February 08, 2024

*ceramic dish set


This dish set had to wait the longest for being finished, I started them back in summer when the Roman fennel was in full bloom. It's such a nice thought to have tea in one the cups that comes from the same fennel plant like I made the imprints with.

February 06, 2024

*Winter ceramics & icy forest streams

{Music: Visitors – Praam + Maisie Lee · Blue Dot Sessions}

Due to the circumstances I set up the Christmas tree in the new year, but I did not want to skip it, because I had made those little clay birds for it and I was curious how they will look on the tree.
In January we visited a few times a frozen forest stream. I loved the ice formations on the surface and the sounds of the water. So refreshing and relaxing at once! Hope you enjoy it too!

February 05, 2024

*frozen roses


Still struggling so much with neuralgia, it makes it hardly possible to do anything and with the strong storms that we are heaving, I can not go outside, the cold wind triggers the nerves even more. I wish I could just be out in nature. But instead I go through some of my winter pictures and leave you some more of them here. One of my favorite ones is the one with the frozen roses. Aren't they amazing to bloom like this in winter? 

February 01, 2024

*a world of great suffering & beauty


The end of January felt heavy, we found one of the roes (that is living near our home) dead directly in front of our garden. It's sight made me cry so much. When I had a closer look I saw that one of its hind legs had an open fracture. We contacted the huntsman to collect its corpse. He said it got for sure hit by a car and that it's sad that so many people do not report it when it happens. The roe had to perish miserably without the hope of quick release. This thought is tormenting me.
Afterwards in the evening I plied Ronald to cut my hair, about 18 cm are off and every time it fascinates me how unburdening it feels! As if a huge burden falls off instantly. I really needed that!
And now, let's welcome February with posting some pictures of my last film that I picked up yesterday. I was very curious about the outcome, because it's full of winter pictures and I think it's not disappointing at all!